I have been searching for an explanation of my exhaustion/fatigue for years. I’ve been exhausted for six years, but my other burnout/stress symptoms disappeared four years ago. But the fatigue stayed.
People have come with loads of suggestions like vitamine deficits, adrenal gland disorder (binjureutmattning), hormone problems and other physical illnesses.
After tests and examinations at the doctor, I’m slowly coming to realize that yes, you can get this exhausted by living my life.
There is (probably) nothing wrong with my body, but my mental disorders together with my daily life is so challenging for me that I live with constant low energy. I have no chance to reload my batteries.
And another reason for realizing this is that I’ve processed so much mental stuff and I’ve made so many changes in my daily life with family that I now get to see just have hard my life has been (and still is).
It’s not weird I am so tired all the time.
As on the intuitive painting I have to wade through fields of high grass, swim the lake and go through fire to reach my beloved positive spirals of rehab in my daily life.
And the complex PTSD I’ve got by living this life is not making it any easier. I’m fighting my fears everyday, trying to get my body to relax a bit.
So yeah, it is not weird I am so exhausted.